Please no negativitity I already feel horrible as is and I’m trying to fix it I really am but I’m 22 weeks pregnant and each day I get more and more with drawn about my daughters arrival I love her and I want her here healthy I’m just scared my husband has basically checked out he doesn’t help me around our house at all he does t help with our son who looks up to him so much the love he has for his dad you can see pouring out of him literally but it’s like that isn’t enough to get my husband up and helping the last week now he’s done nothing for me or our son he has played video games and slept that’s it he said he’d do the dishes last night and didn’t he said he’d take the trash out he set it by the front door and left it there he said he’d get up and cook breakfast it’s now after 1 and he’s still in bed asleep I tried to wake him but he just got mad at me he asked me if I mailed out some letter that technically he has to it’s his not mine he was told to do it and when I said no I couldn’t find a pen he called me a dumb cu*t he has taken all our pens to work and looses them I have tore my home apart and all I can find is a bright orange marker I can’t do anything with that and I told him this but rather than help me or look for the pen he gets mad at me I’m exhausted physically and mentally yes I yell at him but only when I’m at my wits end and it’s 2am and he’s on his game literally screaming like he’s actually being hurt like the video game and if I tell him to be quiet his friends laugh and say I need to shut it and stop nagging so much our son is 2 he doesn’t need to be woken up all hours of the night. My husbands aunt asked why I put up with it and I said bc I love him but when she asked me why I love him I didn’t know what to say I honestly can’t explain why I love him it’s just a feeling and I’ve left a few times only to come back to the empty promises of him changing but even when I left it hurt so bad to be away from him I felt like a burden to my mom when I stayed with her and to my dad when I stayed with him his mom took me in only to tell me she knows her son loves me and our son. I’m lost everyone says fallow your heart but my heart is literally telling me multiple ways to go I don’t know what to do. Sorry for the long post.