I don’t want to be pregnant anymore

Hello. I’m 34+2 with my first baby. This pregnancy has been absolutely miserable for me. From the morning sickness, to the gestational hypertension, and now cholestasis, I am just depressed. I don’t want to be pregnant anymore. I love my baby boy more than anything and I know I should be grateful for the opportunity to be a parent, but I’m just depressed at this point. I just cry all day and all night because of how miserable I am. I’ve even looked for ways to induce labor at home because I don’t wanna do this anymore. I talked to my OB about my feelings and she chalked it up to being in my last months of pregnancy and that it’s normal. However I know it’s not normal to want your baby out so bad that you don’t care if he’s in the NICU. Please don’t judge... I don’t know what else to do. Please tell me I’m not a bad mom. I don’t want to harm my baby in any way, I just want him out of me so I can finally start feeling normal again.