I’m not jealous

So my husband has 3 friends ... my husband and I been married for two years and the rest of his friends got married after us

One friend just had a baby and the other two announced this week they will pregnancies ... I’m not jealous or feel bitter ... they deserve happiness too... they deserve to have babies too... it’s not about I want it to be me and only me... I want everyone who wants a baby to be able to have one ... I just want to be pregnant too... and not just because they are having babies ... it’s just I want a baby and me and my husband been trying for the longest time ... I have this emptiness in my heart... it’s a weird feeling and I just want to vent