With my first pregnancy, i was positive for what they called the anti M antibody. If my levels for it increased it could cause harm to the baby. I jad blood draws at every appointment and several ultrasounds. They also found he had hydronephrosis. A lidney problem and because it ran in the family on both sides we were monitored for that a lot as well. Luckily my levels never increased and i had a healthy baby boy. This time around at my first ultrasound they found a subchorionic hematoma. 2 cm. They said it was small not to worry. And then they called and said i tested positive for the anti M again. And im going back to the specialist. My nerves are officially shot. Ive been trying not to stress because i know theres nothing i can do to change any of this. But i cant help but feel like my body is failing me. I never truly understood what women meant when they said that. But i do now. Im excited for the ultrasound but im also afraid I'll see something i dont want to see. I dont want my family to worry so I've been acting like it doesnt bother me. If they act all pitiful towards me i know ill just feel worse. So ive come to vent here. If anyone is experiencing this or has experienced it, what did you do to calm yourself?