Yesterday I went in for my 1st ultra sound. The tech kept moving the probe around I saw the empty uterus (this is my second pregnancy so I knew what I was looking for). I told her there is nothing there, she wouldn’t say anything. She moved to the sides I said “your checking for ectopic aren’t you?” She looked at me and nodded and said “your a smart girl”.

This pregnancy never felt “right”. I tested and saw a faint positive a week before period was due. But, I started bleeding the day my period was due pretty heavily. I texted the nurse and she asked questions about the color etc. said it may be implantation (thought this was weird bc of the heaviness) it was about three days long and got lighter and lighter to where I was wearing a panty liner and went away. I took a test the day after because I thought it was so not a normal period for me.. way more positive! I googled like crazy about my kind of bleeding and searched this site like crazy and discovered ectopic. I brought this up to my nurse she told me to stop googling I will see the worst. They didn’t think I was as far along as I thought. What?? I am peeing on sticks like crazy for 14 months- I know when I’m ovulating! I knew it wasn’t during the tww but whatever I’m no professional.

Went in for a blood test levels were doubling like they should. Spotted on and off, was taking progesterone then another blood test- levels still going up. At this point I felt a tad better but still felt something may be off. On the way to the ultrasound I brought my bf we were excited but I told him “I can’t wait to see it so I can breathe”. He knew I knew something wasn’t right.

So fast forward to today I went to the hospital to get the methotrexate injection which makes the baby absorb into my body 😢 I have to go next week twice to check my hcg to make sure it’s dropping. And once to see my dr. I have to wait three months to ttc again. I know you ladies know that will feel like eternity. I have to do the dye test in my tubes to see if they are blocked. Then I can start trying again. So crazy we just went to get the due date and see our baby on the screen 😭. I wish all of you and your sept babies the happiest and healthiest pregnancies. It wasn’t my time but I will bless my daughter with a sibling soon I feel it in my gut, and I’m pretty keen on what my gut tells me! Sorry my story is all over the place I’m a little loopy in bed.