So long story short I was not in a relationship with anyone and became pregnant only have 2 sexual partners the father of my child & an old partner. So my old partner went away to the army & before he left I told him I need to know if we are in a relationship & his words were he’s not ready but we still talking 🙄 so cool np.. Once he got out of basic training he went to a state where my mom lives so I stayed with my mom & he came over every weekend 😊 yes we had sex & stuff cooked,pool did all the little romantic things mind you WE ARE NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP... so I started to fall back & told him I believe he’s dragging me along because he’s not wanting a relationship mind you we were in a relationship back in HS but I ended it ... Fast forward I was faithful to him for six months not talking to anyone but one day I said fu*k it & went back home & had sex with my sons father... September comes & army guy proposes to me & I said yes 3 days later I find out I’m pregnant & told him the baby might not be his .... yes he was mad as hell ( I mean who wouldn’t be ) I told him we should hold off on the wedding because of what was going on but he said no he still wanted to marry me .... So we got married after knowing each other for 8 years we finally did it ❤️... We moved to another state because they stationed him there ... we get a place together (I live off my savings) paying some bills and going food shopping for the house .. mind you I have a kids so I have to make sure everything is good with my child before anything ( my mom had him for a month so we can settle in ) I apply for many jobs nun called back so I started to take online classes... November rolls around things are bad ( we disrespecting eachother etc ) I leave and goto my moms who’s in another state & things are getting better because we’re not around each other.. He tells me when me and my son comes back he’s gunna help us etc LIES LIES LIES ... He asked me to spend time with him & his family for Christmas so I booked a flight for me & my son .... Really didn’t want too but he’s my husband right ... we spent 2 weeks at his moms & lord I stayed to myself.. fast forward to now he still disrespects me & im not gunna lie sometimes I react & then he gets on the phone with his mom & she ok everything he do 🙄 he cursed me out because Kobe Bryant died & I didn’t console him 🙄 I lost 2 family members a week before & he did nothing.... Every time I goto the doctors he’s say DNA test & im like no you ask because you want it & he’s like no so I finally ask & she looked at him so nasty because she just told us something might be wrong with the baby but that went over his head apparently & he see that I’m in tears from finding out the news & when we got home guess who’s a dumb bitc* for telling the doctor about a DNA me 🙄 he asked right ? I’m just done with this shit I called & I’m going to therapy because everything I do or say is wrong ! They give him money to pay the bills & he still tells me I need to help him with the bills 😳 his mom is on him bank account & I explain to him how ima help if I’m not working? Yes my family send me money every now & then & his dad sends me money for his child but like come on ... he takes the money they give him for bills in the house & helps his mom 🙄 all the time ... it’s a lot more I wanna say but come on ... oh & I did get a call back from a job but couldn’t take it because who was going to watch my child ? I’ve been asking him to take me to get him in daycare but if it’s not about him he don’t care ... telling me I’m home all day & that his day was long & that what am I complaining for I don’t do what he do ... mind you I cook clean look after a toddler and him because after work or on weekends he’s on his damn game ! Don’t even watch a 30 minute show with us 🙄 I ask him to help out I understand he has work but to at least cook on the weekends to give me a little break .... or let’s do it together ... guys I only have 2 kids but seems like 3 ! Sorry this is all over the place lol I’m just done