I really really really hate my fucking body. I hate the skin I am in. I had two babies in 2019 one in January and the other in December both with c-sections. Before I got pregnant I was a little on the “chubbier” side but I was confident and I had already had such a hard time losing weight because I have pcos and my hyperthyroidism and my body produces to much insulin. But after this second baby I lost all confidence and I cover up in black shirts and sweatshirts like I used to do in high school because I hate the way I look. I am 2-4 sizes bigger then I used to be before babies.. I know my body went through a lot but no matter how much I try to look at it that way it just makes me feel as if I am making excuses for the way I look. Yeah I’m only 2 months postpartum but I should still look better then I do. My husband was trying to take a picture of the shirt I was wearing today because it’s a funny shirt and he told me to suck in a little and I lost it. I’ve never felt worse about myself then I do now.. I was feeling good about myself until this point. So now I am sitting here covered up in a sweatshirt again. And yah I am eating good and trying to get back to how I used to.. just damn I hate myself i