i refuse to give up 🙌🏼

i swore it was my turn this cycle.

12dpo...

i woke up to blood.

at first, my heart stopped. i wanted to cry. i said i was done, i wasn’t getting more opks or preseed, i wasn’t trying anymore, i was done, i give up.

but, that’s not true.

i stuck a tampon in and started planning for next cycle. because i refuse to give up. maybe it didn’t happen this time, but it will. it’s a journey that takes some longer than others, & i’m on for another trip i guess.

someday...

i will get pregnant.

i will be a mom.

💛