I never in a million years thought that I’d be used the way I did. He told me all these beautiful stuff...things that I even found unbelievable. I thought I had finally found the one. Respectful, hard working, determined guy. I gave myself to him & dropped me off home & now barely texts me, calls me, he hasn’t seen me since. Mind you he would always want to see me, blow up my phone, & I started to think the worst but I think it is true. (I did already talk to him about not texting me like before or seeing me & he says he’s just busy but I’m not stupid because He’s out & I’ve seen him out twice & my brother seen him around as well) HE JUST WANTED TO HAVE SEX WITH ME THATS ALL!! it was my FIRST time & he knew that. Now I feel ASHAMED, DISGUSTED, SLUT, NASTY, etc. I regret even giving myself to him but he made me feel like no other guy has ever had. I felt safe with him. But now I have more then clear that guys only want one thing from you & that’s all. I feel like I’m pregnant because he did tell me he ejaculated in me but i really hope I’m not. I am on birth control which is the shot but there is a possibility that I can still get pregnant even though there’s a low chance of it happening. (I got the shot birth control due to my periods.) I HATE MYSELF!!!! IM SO STUPID!! I REALLY HATEMYSELF!! I fucken hate him!!! Guys are fucken assholes!!!!

(I’m 20 years old & in college)