Sorry girls rant needed. 💔

Hey ladies im sorry i really need to vent and feel like i have nobody else to speak to.

So im 34 weeks.. every time my partner drinks. He never comes home when he says he is going to.. tonight he made plans for me and my son to go out for dinner he was ment to be home about 3 after work.. then turned into be home soon im having a beer. Yeah cool. That turned into me calling him repeating the cycle. Comes to 8;30 me and my son are starving so i call him and say dont worry about coming home ill come pick you up from the pub and we can have dinner..

My stupid emotions and my stupid mouth would not stop bickering to him when he got in the car. Tried to exsplain my side or how i see things. He said his sorry. But this has happend our whole relashionship.. so we where at dinner and still chatting about it. He eventually got up and left me and my son sitting there in there eating by ourselfs.. me in tears. My son asking why he dont want to be with us anymore. Asking every 5 mins.. i know i shouldnt of said anything infront of my son. But i aint getting walked over..

So we went home when we done. I put my son to bed.

My partner didnt say a word to me.

He got dressed out of his work clothes into going out clothes. And left without saying a word.

Im now left here feeling like crap. Like alcohol comes before me and his family. Like i dont know what to do..

Will he still be like this when our new baby comes..

Will he stop the shit?

How would u deal with a situation like this.

I know ive done some wrong shit tonight also. But im just dead sick of it. 💔