What to do for my 30th?

Hello Mommas,

Need some ideas

I'm turning 30 on the 1st April & I'm a FTM, my son is now 19 weeks old.

I've been really low for a while (had baby blues when baba was born but that has subsided) been back at work for about 3 weeks now, never see my friends anymore since babe arrived, they just never around so my weeks are work go home to baby, sleep & repeat and my weekends are being with baby in the lounge all weekend long. I'm lonely and sad & feel like my life has done a 360 and become so boring and sad.

I love my son so much just seem to have lost myself. We used do some much exploring and fun things on the weekends and birthdays were always a big party.

So now I just dont know.. I'm afraid I plan a thing at my place and then noone will come because of my baby and I dont think going out would be any better because of baby it's always so tiring we end up not really enjoying ourselves because we so stressed over making sure baby is fine.

I feel like I should just skip my birthday altogether stay at home on the couch in the lounge with my son.

What do you think?