I don't want to eat, smile, bathe, sing... I just want to cry and sleep and listen to really sad songs. I had symptoms but got a negative test, so I worked on convincing myself I wasn't pregnant, that I was having a false pregnancy. My period was only late by 20 days... When I started having excruciating cramps, I thought I was just having a really difficult period, but I couldn't stand or walk, and this morning I passed something that wasn't a blood clot... I don't want to tell my boyfriend, because I don't want him to be sad too. I already convinced myself and him that I was just having false pregnancy symptoms, so I just don't want him to feel anything like how I feel. I had already planned a big date night for us for tomorrow, and I don't want this darkness and heaviness to ruin it. Please just tell me I'm okay and not defective, that I'll feel better soon... Tell me HOW to feel better.