"It's not your time"

That's what everyone keeps telling me. Or "you just want a baby just because." I'm 26. The first time I got pregnant was in 2013. I had a miscarriage in January 2014 at 5 weeks. It was caused by doctors who prescribed me medication who knew I was pregnant at a mental hospital. Once they realized I was having a miscarriage they kicked me out. I was having issues about my dad's suicide. It took me 3 year to get pregnant again. And at the time I told my aunt that I needed to quit my job (I was a CNA worker for my aunt) she said no and I miscarried at 5 weeks 6 days in June 2017. We thought I was pregnant this month but I got a false positive. My husband has given up on having a kid and his family and mine keeps saying 'its not the right time.' I don't ovulate on my own all the time and clomid didn't work for me. Or when I do ovulate we BD on and before ovulation and it just doesn't work. I have told my husband I'm not trying once I'm 30 because if it's not happening now it won't then. I am adopted and my adopted parents were so bad to us. I feel so alone in the world and the only thing I ever wanted was a family of my own. I tell my husband it makes me sad and when his family gets pregnant I find myself in envy and he just tells me I'm wrong for it. My husband says he's ok with having just his daughter so he don't understand how I feel. Maybe I should give up to. Maybe I'm not meant to have a family. I'm just so lost