It is so hard to keep the faith when you’ve been trying 5yrs to conceive after a miscarriage and you get pregnant make it to 22weeks 4days and find out you have a ruptured membrane so you’re in the hospital on bed rest for a week and to find out you have to deliver your son at 23 weeks 4days. He came out weighing 1lb 7oz for the first two days the honeymoon stage as they called it he was doing so amazing and now the 3rd day it’s the absolutely opposite he’s having a hard time with breathing God is real and I’m grateful for the experience to actually be a mother but this is really a difficult time for my husband and I.