When will it be my turn?

7 years later.

This month I was 7 days late. 7 days. I was sure this was it.

We have our IVF appointment today to let the doctor know we want to move forward. This was a hard decision to make. Because what if it doesn’t work?? My emotions are just all over the place.

I thought I would be one of the cool stories after we adopted. We heard it all of the time “once you adopt you’ll get pregnant.” Three adoptions later, still nothing. Then thought once I lost weight. Then I thought on the months we “didn’t try”. Then I was for sure after 7 days late we would find out at the appointment today that we were pregnant. That it was finally our turn. But nope. Aunt Flo showed her ugly face again.

She likes to slap me around a little instead of just causally walking in.

Sorry. Just needed to vent. My husband understands but no one fully gets it unless you’re the woman who can’t do one of the main things women were created to do, carry a child.