@Single moms, does it get easier?

My husband and I are getting a divorce, I’m currently pregnant with our second and the state that we live in doesn’t allow divorces to be finalized until the unborn baby is born. We have a nearly 17 month old son, I’ve been a stay at home mom and due to pregnancy complications I will continue to stay home until after I have this baby.

Anyway, we had court a couple days ago establishing temporary orders until I have the second baby, my husband has never been alone with our toddler, not ever. He is very short tempered and is on medication for his mood but doesn’t take it regularly, all of this was brought up in court and how I feel unsafe with him and how I feel like our babies will be unsafe with him too (the reason why I filed for divorce to begin with). The judge basically ruled in my favor but gave my husband every Thursday 4pm-6pm and every Saturday 9am-5pm. I’m relieved there’s no overnight stays and my husband currently lives with his mother and I currently live with my parents. But I can’t help the overwhelming feeling of sadness and worry that I feel tonight. Tomorrow is the first day my husband will be picking up our baby and taking him elsewhere for the time he has with him and I just am so so sad. He’s never been alone with him before and I am so worried. I don’t even know what I should do during the time my baby is away from me, please tell me it gets easier. Please tell me some encouraging words because I can’t help but to think of the struggles my baby will have during nap time tomorrow in a different place without his normal routine.