I’m a lesbian, been with me gf for 5 years. I have trust issues and Friday we got in a bad argument because I saw an unfamiliar name pop up on her phone as a text. I asked her who it was and she said a friend.

I didn’t believe her so I grabbed the phone but it was locked and she wouldn’t give me the password so I got mad and slammed it and cracked it badly.

She then smacked me hard across my face. I hit her back and we started fighting. She’s bigger than me so she was basically beating the shit out of me. My roommate stopped the fight and I was crying. She left and we talked on the phone since then but I haven’t seen her in person. She’s never hit me before this incident. She keeps apologizing. But Idk if I’m ready to forgive her yet.

Any advice?