Childfree path ?
So I'm not 100% sure but I think I'm going to be childfree. I am 22 years old and I got pregnant last year in December. (Please don't leave rude comments) My pregnancy was not planned and I used protection so it was a shock to me. The whole time I was pregnant I had an extremely hard time connecting to the child. Everything just felt extremely wrong. I was miserable even though I was only pregnant from a short time. I miscarried at 7 weeks.
I dont think I want to be a mother, ever. I honestly deep down dont like kids at all. I dont understand why so many people gush over babies. It really just doesnt connect for me. I dont find pregnancy beautiful in any sense I just dont feel anything towards it. I understand it is a very beautiful thing for a lot of people and I totally respect that, I dont think others are wrong for how they feel. That's just how I personally feel.
I also dont have any maternal bone in my body. I would consider myself a kind person but I dont like taking care of people and I'm not a nurturer. I dont think I'm capable of that kind of love. But also, I'm not sure if this is just how I will always be or if these things can change. Does anyone else feel the same way? I know how I feel is unusual and I think it might have to do with the abusive household I grew up in. Sometimes I feel like a bad person but I cant help that I feel this way. When I was pregnant I tried so hard to love my baby and I just couldnt. I'm probably going to get hate for this but oh well.
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