So sad rn...

I'm 24w 6d and this pregnancy has been far from easy. So excited for baby boy but I'm so ready to be done...

Our intimacy is struggling 😭 We are having longer periods in between now and when we do it's so awkward and uncomfortable.... like our first time 🤦🏻‍♀️ Last night was so awkward.... To the point he kept asking if I was ok because I couldn't relax enough so I guess he could tell I was tense.... it's just so uncomfortable and my belly gets so hard that it makes it hard to breathe... I don't remember feeling this way until at least 30weeks before with our other 2. I just feel a little discouraged and sad about it. I know it isn't forever but still June seems SO FAR AWAY now. it is hard to explain I want to so bad but then during it's like can this just be over soon 😭🤦🏻‍♀️ I AM NEVER LIKE THAT. I felt so sad after last night I literally just wanted to cry.... It just felt like this huge disconnect.... I'm sure I'm being dramatic but when your love language is PHYSICAL TOUCH those special times are that much more important.... Idk I am afraid I'm just gonna dread the next time... We've been so bogged down with life we haven't really stopped to focus on eachother.... intimacy lately has been more of a "because we need to" than a "because we want to." The "because we need to" doesn't have the same special feeling and oneness that the "want too" has.... I guess I've just been craving that oneness that is missing right now... for us the best and fastest way to reconnect and get that is intimacy because both of us need that touch.

Please tell me this is normal 😭😭

UPDATE: One night last week my husband wanted to shower with me, we used to all the time. So I reluctantly agreed just cause I've been more and more insecure about him seeing me naked. When we got in he just looked at me and said "Ok baby, what's wrong?" And I just burst into tears like literally sobbing. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I told him my fears and how I felt about what I posted here and more. Can I just say my husband is amazingly sweet. He just hugged me and let me cry. Then we talked and I felt so much better after. Basically he told me that my body is beautiful to him because I'm creating a human and this is my 3rd time doing so. We took like a 30 min shower because we were just talking. And after he just held me in bed til I fell asleep 🥰 I'm so thankful that I can tell him things like that and while they may seem silly to him he takes them seriously cause it's serious to me.

And then the next night, he initiated sex and spent a lot of time focusing on me, making sure I was comfortable and just telling me how much he loves me all while focusing on my body. I definitely felt like we connected and it was a night of passion not necessity.

I'm so lucky 🥰🥰