Ladies, I need advice 😔

Hello,

So... I don’t know what to do... My boyfriend and I live together and things are great! But now I feel crushed because of what I found out. I’ve kind of wondered and this morning it came to light. I knew he jacked off, but never questioned him about it because I guess like all men do🤷🏻‍♀️ This morning we were going to have sex, but I wanted to shower and everything first because I was getting over being sick. I always want to have sex! Sometimes I feel like I’m annoying him because of how often I want it and he’ll tell me no sometimes, but I figured he wasn’t in the mood, no big deal. Well, I found out that he jacked off while I was in the shower today... this actually made me really sad. He didn’t want to have sex anymore once I asked and his excuse was that he was “dirty” now and I was clean. That’s pretty valid, except for the fact I knew he had done that while I was in the shower so it just felt like a cover up. I feel like so crappy now because he couldn’t wait like 20 minutes?! And then he didn’t want to be with me anymore. Maybe I’m overthinking this, but I feel so sad and frankly, lied to which I can’t ignore. I guess I understand if someone jacks off while their SO is out of town...or at work... but when each of them is there and available then preferably no. Cus in my case, I’m always down! But the fact that he’d choose otherwise over me... am I overthinking this and sad for nothing?...

Thanks for the input💕