Should we have a 2nd baby...?

Since our first is 14 months now, I’m having such a debate in my head and heart.

We’ve been set on just 1 baby, since we lost 2 before her and me being high-risk with epilepsy. Also, I can’t imagine loving another the same as my first, and I feel like I’d be taking away from her if we had another. Also...I’m exhausted with just her 😂

BUT I want to give her a sibling. And I LOVED being pregnant!!

How can I want her to have a sibling and but also be worried about having two at the same time!? 😩