So basically I’ve been hooking up with this guy at work for five months now and it was pretty much a friends with benefits kinda thing except I caught feelings and he knew and everyone knew about us.... then we tried keeping it on the down low but people still talked

Anyway one of his close friends also works with us. One day me and his friend were closing together and we were alone and there is a bed in the breakroom we were laying on the bed and he starts touching me and I just froze up he just took my pants off and pulled me on top of him and started to have sex with me but I didn’t say a word or move and then it was over and I started crying and

I guess he told his friend (the one I had been seeing) that we had sex and his friend got upset that I let it happen and now is not talking to me even though I explained it wasn’t really a mutual thing but he asked if he raped me and I said no because I didn’t fight him off I just froze.

I have an internship where we teach about consent and how silence isn’t consent and lack of resistance isn’t consent but when it happened to me idk what to do. I have to see both of them on a regular basis at work and i can’t tell anybody what happened to me no one would believe me and I can’t quit my job until I find another one. I don’t know if what happened was sexual assault but I feel so angry and empty and numb all at the same time. Especially because I really care about the guy I was seeing but I guess I meant nothing to him because he believed his friend over me and didn’t even bother to ask my side of the story or see if I’m okay. He just won’t talk to me