You caused me more pain than any other human. A pain no one should ever go through especially by someone they trust. You were drunk. You held me by my throat. I cried silently.

To find out you died has me so torn. Part of me feels relief and the other side part of me hasnt processed it yet. You had been my best friend for 3 years. We went to prom together. I had my first ever beer with you. We saved each other when our trucks were stuck in the mud. We leaned on each other for everything. Then one night I came to just hang out after being gone for a year in the Army and you were drunk. You are the reason for the anxiety that crippled me for years. Now youre gone.