The secrets I live with

I don't want to me married to my husband.

I don't love my husband.

He has cheated on me many times.

I cheated on him once.

He treats our children horribly. (He doesn't physically hurt them)

I'm afraid to leave him because I don't want him having the children unsupervised.

I have no proof of his mistreatment, no way to guarantee full custody.

He is controlling.

He treats myself and the kids as his puppets and gets angry if we don't follow.

I am a mess mentally because of all this, I put on the perfect family show in front of people.

Nobody knows. These are my secrets.