Im feeling so downed. I'm in my 4th month trying and one of my friends need up pregnant and I'm so excited but sad and waiting for my BFP. But I'm also mad because I've been trying and now my brother is too and he likes to compete and be better than me and his fience is already making jokes about them conceiving first and I'm just sad and hope they don't because I'm just gonna have them push it in my face. They don't even know my husband and I had a miscarriage last year so I'm very scared and hoping.