Why am I the way that I am? Why do I hurt the people I care about? Why do I care about people who constantly hurt me? Why do I cry myself to sleep? Why do I feel like I need to smoke weed to even function? Why am I so emotional? Why is it that any time I show any sign of an upset emotion I’m asked “Are you off your meds?” Why do I lay alone all day and night wishing I would have died years ago?