When will I be happy again?

After struggling with my pregnancy for 6 weeks I was told at 9 weeks that I had an ectopic and was treated for it with methotrexate. At first I didn’t feel much. No sadness or anger, but recently I’ve been feeling like my world is falling apart. I’m so mad. I’m hurt. I’m jealous of everyone who’s able to have a healthy pregnancy. Including all three of my sisters who are pregnant right now. I know it’s horrible and I shouldn’t feel this way but I can’t stop the feelings. When I miscarried my first I didn’t feel half as angry and hurt as I feel with my recent loss. I just want to be happy and normal again 😔