Cannot believe he’s here!

Everyone should have the birth they want. There’s no wrong or right, what’s best for one mumma might not be what’s best for you.

But.... I’m hella proud of myself. And I’m hella proud of my boy.

I was induced on March 5th at 8pm. Bubba has a genetic condition, so lots of stuff going on. But at my appointment that day we learned that he hadn’t grown for about 3-4weeks! So we decided to induce that day.

Husband and I drove back up to the hospital after going home to get ready and collect my things. They started the pitocin around 8pm. At 3am I was only at 3cm, and they broke my waters. An hour later they measured me at 4cm.

At 7am, the Dr came and all the night team changed shift with the day team of nurses and midwives. Dr asked if my contractions felt worse or longer and I said I didn’t know. Just felt bloody horrible! He measured me and I was at 9cm. Dr said I should expect to deliver within the next hour or so. Then everyone left the room.

I thought I’d go to the bathroom and get my head in the game before everything started. Husband walked me there with my IV drip, and I closed the door. Very suddenly got the urge to push. And before I could realize what was happening, I knew I needed to just get him out.

With two pushes Thomas was born at 7.09am. I was able to grab him and hold him on my lap. He was breathing and making all the right noises. Far more than we had ever expected with his condition. I was told to expect a still birth. And that he might not tolerate labor, or be with us very long if he did.

He is now 3 weeks old and doing brilliantly. A true miracle. I had no pain relief. And aside from having to be induced, had the natural birth I really wanted.

I know that isn’t the case for all mummas. And I am so incredibly lucky it turned all out the way it did. But it was perfect for us. I got those first few precious seconds to see he was just fine. Just us two. And I knew everything was going to be okay.

There is still going to be a long and uncertain road for Thomas. But my husband and I have always maintained that this is Thomas’s journey. He will show us what he’s made of, and he’ll decide how long he’s here with us. No expectations, just him showing us the way. I’m just so happy that his journey started the way it did.

My precious, special little soul. He’s blown us all away. Such a quiet, peaceful baby. He has filled us with so much love and gratitude. Teaching us more about ourselves and this world that we’ve ever known before.