Falling out of love Part 2

Okay so I always wanted my proposal to be very special I mean who doesnt want that right so then that day came..we were sitting on the couch a few days before christmas and hes talking about us getting married at the courthouse and keep in mind I told him how important it is for me to have our families there and I want everything to be special right I dont know if I've mentioned this but he was engaged before we met obviously it didnt work out and I want to add he is 10 years older than me but that was never a thing you know anyways so were sitting there talking about it and he was like we should get married at the courthouse that way Penelope (our baby) could have insurance before she gets her I was having a home birth so he wanted her and me to have the insurance incase we had to go to the hospital so anyways I I thought he was playing around right so then we sit there quietly and hes like there I was like there what hes like I made an appointment at the courthouse and I was like what hes like so we could get married hes like well have the wedding that we want in the future and I was so confused he didnt even have a ring for me or anything it's just not what I pictured it wasnt special it's like he just told me were getting married and that's that you know soo then we end up getting married right cause I love the guy and then I gave birth 6 months after giving birth I get postpartum depression it was noticeable and he never really questioned it or asked me if I was okay so we start fighting alot at this point I'm thinking dark thought I would never harm my child just to put that out there I was just so sad lonely angry but so in love with my daughter shes really what kept me going but back to it I would tell him I was depressed and he would sit and hear what I'm saying and say it's all in your head ...everytime I would bring it it that's all he would say. Anyways forward to my daughter being 10 months he expressed to me how he really wants to say money so we can buy a house so he came up with this plan what me and our daughter go live with his parents back in California for 6 months to a year so he can save as much money and I wasnt really convinced keep in mind I'm depressed asf now he wants to separate our family and I could just see how bad he wanted it to I gave in

Going to post part 3 I know it's a long one