My body really doesn’t want to let go

Just to update: my baby stopped growing at 6w4d. I found that out at my first appointment when I should have been 9w. I waited a week after that to see if my body would naturally pass the loss. It did not. I went back in and got misoprostol. I came in today after a week of bleeding and passing large clots thinking it was over...it wasn’t. My body is still hanging on tight and now I’m waiting for my D and C to begin. I just want to move on. I’m nervous about the procedure and frustrated that my own body is putting me through all this. 💔