Is this abuse?

So everytime me and my partner argue, lately (for the last 18 months) it ends 7o becoming physical. It's not just him, it's me too. But he always seems to be the one to initiate the violence. So for example, this evening we had a row and he told me he didnt love me and didnt want to be with me anymore. So I said"well if that's the case you came leave" regardless of covid 19, I dont want to be int eh same house as someone who doesn't love me. So in my opinion he needs to go back to his mothers house. Dont get me wrong, I out up a fight, but before I met this man I literally had not a single bad bone or argumentative bone in my body.

When o told him he needed to leave he thought it ok to kick me, hot me with my daughters toys and throw and glass to the kitchen floor. Then he blamed me when I tried to defend myself. Saying fits all my fault etc.

I'm sorry but its not my fault he doesn't love me. I cannot change the person I am. Bearing in mind I do absolutely everything for this man and his 3 children. He doesn't lift a finger. Maybe does the dishes once a week. Nothing else.

I'm so mad but more upset. I'm pretty sure he broke my nose last weekend but I did nothing about it because I think I love him. He also pushed me so hard that i don't know what happened but my back is so painful i can't bend forward anymore.

All the while we've been trying for a baby and it isn't happening. Maybe it's a good thing.

Be drinks so much too. Dont get me wrong, I love a nice glass of wine but 1 or 2 will do me fine. He's the type of person that cannot stop if he starts. And as soon as he is sad, anxious, happy or anything he will find an excuse to drink.

I don't know what to do