I have been with my husband for 3 years, been married since June 1st 2019. I love him with all of my heart, and I would do anything for him. But I don’t feel like he feels that way towards me, he has an addiction to alcohol. He drinks everyday, and when gets drunk, he gets mean, here lately he’s been threatening me to get out, and to go to my Moms. Of course I don’t want too, because I love him! But I feel like he’s draining me from the inside out, and our daughter is 16 months old and I’m 36 weeks pregnant with our son. I don’t want them around that, my daughter is interested in what he’s drinking, and of course she doesn’t know what it is, but it kills me inside watching her, watch him and trying to reach for it. He’s always blaming me for everything, he never does anything wrong. He’s been disrespectful to my Mom, yelling at her, yelling at me. Telling my daughter that he loves her, but he doesn’t love me. He’s a good man when he’s sober and away from the alcohol. He’s a good Daddy too! But he’s not a good husband to me, and he’s even said that himself. He used to drink liquor real bad, he’d start drinking whiskey at 5 in the morning before we got married, and had kids. When we had our daughter, he promised me no more liquor, that he’d stick to beer. Well he’s been buying shooters behind my back, and he’s been lying to me, I finally confronted him today. He was laid off due to COVID-19 this week, so we have no income coming into our household. So we need all the money we can get, and he got his last paycheck today, well the first thing he does is go to the store and buy shooters. He tells me I’m not being an adult, and that I am immature. I have no idea on what to do anymore, like I don’t wanna do this anymore, I’m tired of it. My Moms ex husband was an alcoholic lived with it for 9 years, watched my Mom get abused, and my siblings, including myself. So I hate alcohol. But then deep down I love my husband, and I don’t want to leave him. But I’m afraid that he’s gonna bring me down with him.