I don’t understand my vagina. Help?

So I’ve seen the diagrams, I have some basic knowledge of the anatomy, and I know most vaginas aren’t 100% like the diagrams, but I’m confused as hell. I can’t really figure out where everything is, even with a mirror.

I know how to stimulate my clitoris (with a shower head) and its general location, but with my eyes and fingers I can’t actually find the actual clitoris nor the clitoral hood because my inner labia is such a confusing mess I don’t even know how to dig through it to find anything.

As for my vaginal opening and canal, only recently was I able to properly get a finger in (it hurt way too much before) and it felt extremely tight. I was not able to go deep but it felt bumpy around my finger and when I tried to go deeper, the wall toward the front of my vagina felt very hard, like bone. I don’t know if that’s normal..? But it freaked me out and I stopped going after that.

I’m glad I’m finally exploring my body but it’s really scary and confusing. I don’t know if what I’m experiencing is normal or not and also I’ve always just kinda been really squeamish about putting things in there.

Anyone have any tips? Do you guys think there’s any abnormalities? Should I see a gynecologist (after the whole COVID-19 stuff of course)?