How long did it take you.

The 1st Monday of the 2wk stay home order I had a misscarriage. They said that the ultrasound they took showed the sac but no baby formed. I'm trying look at it this way God didn't want my baby to be born at this time so he didn't put anything there yet. I'm not blaming God. I'm not blaming the devil. I'm saying God was preparing me because I went to the doctors a few years ago and they told me that something inside was not turned right. They told me in Kentucky I couldn't have children. When they took the ultrasound this time in Michigan and after they showed the pictures they told me that I would be able to have kids again. I understand that I'm believing God that He healed me. But I still feel like I lost something. How do you lose something that was never there? You don't. I was so scared that something was going to happen to the baby that i thought I was going to have. I was afraid to be in rooms by myself. I didn't want to be alone and I felt like no one was listening to me. If I would've been working that day and all this would've happened there I keep wondering would someone come looking for me. It hurt so bad my husband couldn't be in the ER with me. I stressed out so much because he couldn't come into my appointments because of this virus. God's my first safety net. Then my husband is my 2nd. I was so scared to come back to work. I didn't want to go. I want to be at home because its a safe place to me right now.

How do I get my husband to understand all this? Maybe he does.

Does anyone else feel this way?

How do you pray to God about this? I know He's there and I know He's with me.