Can’t stop thinking about it.. in desperate need of advice..

(Not sure if this is the right group)

After trying for over a year, I recently had an ectopic pregnancy. It was devastating.. the hardest thing I’ve ever been through.. Now, unfortunately my fiancé has decided he doesn’t want to ever have another baby & I am struggling so much with this. I respect his decision, however I still want a baby more than anything. My heart has never felt this kind of pain, it’s like I lost the only chance I had. I was the happiest I had ever been & in only two short months, that happiness was ripped away from me. I love my fiancé so so much, I’m trying to be understanding but it’s extremely difficult & making me bitter towards him.

Since losing this baby, I’ve been in a deep depression & after hearing him say that he never wants to try again it has been worse. Everyday is a struggle for me. Those words cut me like a knife.

I just need some advice on how to deal with this situation, anything helps.