i think i need help..

so, i don’t really post on here but i don’t know what else to do. for a while now, my mental health has just been getting worse and worse. i’m not diagnosed with anything, but i think thats only because i’ve never been to a therapist. i would like one, but i’m too scared to ask my parents. i feel like i would be putting a burden on them for asking them to pay, especially because my family’s financial situation isn’t the best. plus they know nothing. they don’t know i’ve cut, they don’t know i’ve had suicidal thoughts. they think i’m just a happy, perfectly fine 16 year old girl. i almost feel guilty not telling them anything because they’re like the best parents in the world. im terrified of their reaction. i feel like i’m at the point where i need to do something. someone please comment and give me advice i don’t know what to do. :’(

also thank you if you read the whole thing, i really appreciate being listened to for once. please comment it can be anything