I want to cry, but the tears wont come out

I want to cry, but the tears wont come out. My daughter will be 2 on sunday and this time last year roughly is when i found out about Glow. It helped us find my fertile week when we found out we were pregnant 4 days after my daughter's first birthday. Our due date wouldve been in late july. Sadly, it ended in a mc of our twins that next month. Glow was so empathetic to me and sent heir condolances and grievance support when i needed it. We were shocked to find out 6 months later (in may of this year) that we were expecting again! Sadly again, it ended in an ectopic. 4 months after my ectopic and today, is when we found out we are expecting again! Im praying this will be the rainbow baby that we will hold. A fun side note: we will be due exactly the same time we were due with our first miscarrige. How crazy would it be if it were twins again this time around?! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ˜