Anxious Wreck

2020 is falling a part. I'm a senior, and I've busted my ass for years trying to get good grades so I can go to college. College application time has passed and I bombed the SAT (my fault because I didn't know how to study very well). More than that, I have no way to support myself through college financially. Due to the nature of my dad's job (he's self employed and my mom's a stay home mom) he hasn't been able to do his taxes. Obviously, if your taxes aren't done, you can't prove income so you can't get fill out the FASFA. I'm also petrified of driving so I don't have my license. So I am in no place to go to college. Then, as if my future hasn't gone to shit already, schools get shut down. In MD, they haven't made an announcement about whether schools will be closed for the rest of the year. But, being honest, they probably will be. So now I don't get to have my senior prom, my last chorus concert (I've been in chorus since 4th grade except not in 6th grade), and I won't get to walk across the stage. Then, as if my life isn't fucked enough as is, I'm having the worst period ever. Last night I thought my period was over and it wasn't and I now have blood in my underwear. I ran out of clean ones to wear so I tried to wash some today and THE FUCKING WASHING MACHINE BROKE!!!! So I have no clean underwear, my dad freaked out and won't let mom go to the store and he picked out the worst pads I've ever had the displeasure of wearing in my whole life. Also, we bought the cheapest most useless toilet paper ever. In conclusion, my future is fucked, years of effort went down the drain with no reward, these pads suck and so does the toilet paper, and i am an anxious wreck.