Soon to B Trauma

Life has been rough for most of us since this whole pandemic thing. Not only do we have our regular day to day schedules and being parents working those of us that still do and then topped off with having to be full time school teachers. My scale just tipped over!

I just found out to day that my dad in law was sent home to die from the specialist! We have anywhere from three days to a couple of weeks! He was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease last year and has been waiting for treatment. Thanks to insurance bs he has had to continue to wait.

These last few weeks he was in and out of the hospital with fevers and extra blood transfusions and plasma transfusions. Once they figured out what the fevers were coming from (massive bacterial infection) from a rotten tooth the put him on massive medications. His doctors all got together and decided he would go up and start treatment for the autoimmune disease.

I’m confused to how we went from getting treatment to he is dying! I didn’t think I could break anymore! I have to be strong for my daughters as they will remember and know that there grandpa is gonna be gone. The boys are too young too have memories of him.

Although I don’t get along with my ex this is gonna almost kill him! He has always wanted a more connected relationship with his dad and I don’t know if he has ever really achieved it or not but I would never wish the loss of a parent on a adult child.

I’m I capable of crying right now because honestly I don’t have the mental room for it.