I'm fairly new to TTC so I know I haven't been through what lots of you have, I just need someone to talk to..

I'm sitting here in tears writing this for the first time in our TTC journey. Usually I'm quite upbeat about it, negative tests and AF coming disappoint me but I'm usually still hopeful that the next month it will happen.

Then this month, my period was late. A few weeks late. I had all the symptoms, I was convinced I was pregnant and so was husband. He pointed out a few baby items he'd seen.. we stupidly got our hopes up.. more negative tests and I convinced myself I was one of those people that it takes a while to show up in tests..

Until yesterday, when I started spotting which then turned into a light flow. Lighter than normal but I can't make any more excuses. We're out again this month. On the same day, a family member made a comment about how we need to start thinking about it soon or it won't happen as I'm 'late 20s' (26 and no one knows we've been trying so they didn't know they were upsetting me). Never had anyone say that to me before and now I'm panicking. My husband also mentioned that his father had 2 children starting school by the age he is now. My husband is so very supportive and I know he was hurting too.

Our birthdays are the start of next year and I was really hoping to have started our family by then.. Everything together has just made me feel so broken.. :( struggling to find hope this time.. sorry, I know it doesn't seem like much to be upset about compared to others.. Thank you for reading.