Ok...stick it out and read please... we have been together for four years now. From the beginning I knew he had a vasectomy from his previous marriage. ( he has two young teenage kids from it)

From the beginning he has known I want kids, he always told me, we could figure something out when we were ready... fast forward three years later (one year ago....) we started trying at home insemination, failure after failure, it crushed me, so I decided to take a break from it.

Jump to January of this year... at the dinner table I told him, I wanted to start trying again. He was just silent so I let it go, I knew he was processing it. Later that night, he told me, he no longer wanted kids... he said that he wanted to live life. Not have those kinds of responsibilities... I cried....and cried... we went to bed. A week went by and we dove deeper into the topic. He said his ex wife didnt let him do anything he wanted when they had babies. He couldn't have hobbies, etc., and he was afraid that would happen again. I promised him he could still have his hobbies... I told him I am not her. I told him I love him. But I want to be a mom too..during the week of "thinking" he realized, I was planning on leaving....

He told me after thinking about it, he is OK with us having a baby......

So now my fear is, when and if I do get pregnant..does he really want another kid, or does he just not want me to leave.. will he be the dad this child deserves? Will he leave? I know no one knows these answers... only time will tell when and if it even ever happens..... I just needed to vent... what would you do?

Honestly I dont know 100% what he means. I only hear his side, not hers.. ya know? And I HIGHLY doubt he sees them as a burden, in fact I know he does not. He is a really good dad. He is crazy about his kids.