My boyfriend wants to buy me one of the suction dildos so he can stick it to something and watch me 😬

I'm totally down for the idea, but I'm so nervous. I can barely ride him and he has a small/skinny dick. I legit have no muscles and he does most the work helping me up and down tbh 🤦🏻‍♀️

He's my first and I've never used anything larger than a hairbrush handle (my own hairbrush and I wash it real good so don't go calling me gross). It'll be so embarrassing, but he's kinda into the humiliation and I can get with it, just gonna take some time.

Any dildo suggestions lol