Feeling too overwhelmed with life

I dont feel very secure with how my life is going. Im currently not working (got laid off because of coronavirus) I don’t have any money saved. I’m 22 and I still live at home. Don’t have my license. In so many ways I feel like I’m not progressing.

However in a way I am proud of myself because I deal with clinical depression, extreme social and generalized anxiety, past suicidal ideation but I’m still here. I’m so proud of myself for still being here!

I’m trying to not be so hard on myself, but when I see other people my age and what they’ve done and what kinds of jobs they have, I have to admit I’m jealous. I just feel really depressed and like a failure and like I won’t ever accomplish anything. I have so many goals for myself I want to accomplish but it’s like no one understands how hard it is with mental illness. I want my license but Im terrified of driving because of anxiety. I want to go to college but I’m afraid because of the same reason. I have to push myself so hard to do anything. It’s like I have to work ten times harder for what I want.

I’m trying to do better but it’s just difficult. Negativity always gets the best of me.