Not feeling loved

Need help, advice, tips, ideas..

I had my son almost a year ago. I have to be honest i never really think of sex. With work, house stuff, caring for baby.. all i want to do is sleep.

About a month or 2 ago we talked and i promised to try to be intimate with him at least once or twice a week.. well that mever happened. Now hes fed up on waiting. I can't even touch him, he wont cuddle with me, kiss me, say i love you. Nothing. I just want our life back. He says he wont leave me but i feel like hes more of a roommate than a husband. And now he doesnt know if he wants any more kids.. before he wanted 3.. heart broken.

I also have the nexplanon in my arm and this month i swear i had my cycle and then not even a week later another 1.

Unhappy, depressed. Hes told me multiple times what i could do and i honestly forgot.. my memory is shot.

Tonight i want to try something special out of the blue but i dont think he will let me do anything... any ideas...

I just want romance back but i think its too late. I messed up