Anyone else

Soooo. I have had miscarriage. No good pregnancies and I am pregnant again. Super early also and completely afraid. I feel like my cramping is a bad sign. I dont want to get excited. I feel bad about not enjoying it but I cant. I go for an ultrasound in a couple weeks and my obgyn apt soon. I am just worried. Did anyone else experience these issues. I recently had an ectopic pregnancy in Feb. I went to start my medicine 4 days ago. My day of missed period. Which is normal because pcos I dont have normal periods so no biggie. Which is why i had already gotten both medicines to have a cycle and to ovulate and boom! Early little faint line. So with two rounds of blood work its confimed that i am pregnant again. No fertility medicine. Just by the Grace of God. But yet I'm still worried. Ugh. Any advice ?