Sex drive 😔

So a little back story my ex was mentally abusive and I would always let him use me for sex so he wouldn’t get mad at me ,my current boyfriend very different super sweet but we have different sex drives and it can become a problem sometimes because I rarely want to do it ,But part of the reason I don’t want to do it is because of my ex ,I feel kinda traumatized yk? & I’m a little insecure of my body ,so it’s not that I don’t find my bf attractive or love him it’s just hard to learn to love myself and let myself go w everything that I’ve been through .Idk at times I feel that I hate myself for not having a high sex drive because I just want to make my boyfriend happy and I don’t want to make him seem like he’s a bad person for having a higher one then me ,But Ig sence it was sex all the time w my ex I just don’t want that w him ,I mean yeah we go out and we don’t do it every time but I wanna just be able to watch tv and chill at his house and he not ask me if I wanna do it every time .and we both live with our parents so sometimes we have to Sneak around to do it ,Sometimes I just feel like he would be better off w someone who stable and can please him yk ? :/ but idk what do y’all think I should do? or what do y’all think about the situation?