Sad for big brother

Every single night I put my 2 year old to bed.... I’m sad. I’m guilty. I feel like I don’t give him enough attention, enough snuggles and he deserves more. I have 4 month old twin boys (who THANK GOD are easy babies) but that doesn’t mean they aren’t work around the clock.... I just feel so sad for my toddler. when the babies were born I just told myself it’s a survival phase and I’d do better with him as soon as I could.... still waiting for that time to come 😟