Has anyone been through this or going through this?

My husband and I were blessed with a healthy baby boy in December after 5 years of ttc and several losses.

When i was pregnant we avoided sex throughout pregnancy because we were scared of another miscarriage, we only had sex when i was 10 days overdue to induce labour (it worked but ended up having an emergency c section).

My son is 19 weeks now and my husband and I are yet to have sex. I co sleep with my son as i exclusively breastfeed and he wakes often in the night to feed. I've tried putting him in his bassinet but it's so exhausting waking up every couple of hours to feed him.

We just havnt found the time to have sex and im really starting to miss it. We are completely besotted with our son and are extremely grateful for him.

I just find myself thinking about the days before my son and how we used to enjoy sex. Now it just feels like a distant memory and its making me sad.

Sometimes i feel a bit guilty for feeling like this because we longed for a child for so long and I know there are couples who who have been struggling for more than 5 years.

My husband and I havnt really talked about having sex again, he has joked a few times that our son has stolen me away from him lol. Im just really missing sex, we do cuddle and kiss but obviously thats not the same.