Was I really THAT bad..

I was married 5 years and 5 months before our 5th year anniversary, I was friend zoned and told, I was never in love with you, I fell in love with you when we met and until you fell pregnant with my son, but then I loved you less and less with the things you did to me and your hormones in pregnancy, so hence, we are friends. And the next part, made me wanna run right out the door " I can't reach into my heart and make myself love you". I never got past it and even if I have been separated 16 months, it has me reeling and feeling like I was so bad at my own marriage that someone could say that, not only that he would constantly call me stupid, a bad mum, useless, dirty bitch and a shit for never using a nutri bullet and I was never creative enough to use one, he made fun of my aprons in the kitchen, saying I was a "shit cook" and all my aprons deserved to be in the bin and he said this, when we unpacked boxes after moving out together from my parent's house, we lived two years with mum then he wanted his privacy "privacy to treat me like shit" "more like it". Is it possible for someone to be so bad in pregnancy with hormones that their husband could back off like that, to the extent of their own wife being friendzoned? I am still licking my wounds and racking my brain for any possible answer. This is me n my son and I have a daughter on the way.

Update: He even told me, when I said Connor was a confirmed pregnancy. He never said yes or no to it and he claimed I went ahead and kept my son with no permission. He had once forced me into abortion when we were engaged,never paid for it, never accompanied me. He also claimed sex is sex and you didn't need love to make a child, it's a matter of sleeping with a woman. He acts like being a mum punished us.

Update 2- I remembdr how I checked his 6 followers on instagram, it said he started an account and it was a suggestion for me to add, and there was a mslewis art teacher, perhaps that was who was sleeping with him while I was a "friend" in his household, all those "going to the shops" moments he got home at 10pm. She did art teaching etc and taught kids and might have given him time in her private studio. I feel disgusted...