Worried about gender

I know I should be thankful with any gender as long as the baby is healthy but honestly I’m so scared to find out I’m having a girl I grew up with boys my whole life and my first baby was a boy and my dream for kids has always been two lil boys and I feel so upset and so much guilt feeling this way scared if I were to have a girl like why can’t I just be normal and wish for any sex and be happy 🙁 this is really stressing me out ..... please don’t be harsh I already feel bad thinking and rethinking about it deep inside me I feel like I’ll have another boy but idk .......